Day 359: Smile

Why can't I smile anymore
Without feeling like a fake.
Such lies and deception
To act like I'm one of the rest:
Is it worth it?
Whoever said faking it was a hard thing?
They were wrong.
The hard part is being okay with doing it.
And that's the issue I face.
The smile feels uncomfortable upon my face
And when I laugh I do all I can to stop;
Afraid of someone seeing through my teeth
To the words my mouth shows.
If I have to be a fake, to fit within the rest
Then my broken soul must do it;
For I cannot bare be without.
I can smile;
And eventually I'll feel right when I do.